Offline From Reality

 How can I feel connected
When I feel empty and rejected
My mind is frozen, I feel disconnected
I cry until I feel nothing
Help me, I wanna feel something

These days I feel like I don't exist
These mental scars hurt more than the ones on my wrists
It's pulling me apart
It's eating up my heart

Please leave me alone before I turn unkind
The pain is killing my mind
Until I feel nothing, I lose colour
My heart is drowning deep in cold water

I feel far from home when I'm at war with myself
All these lies are telling me that I should fit in
These unfamiliar faces seem unforgiving
So dead and distant
The constant battle in my head is so persistent

How can I feel connected when I feel nothing at all
It's destroying my soul
Let me sleep to the sound of silence
I don't want to wake up to the sound of violence

I don't want to cry around others, it'd feel like I'm bleeding around sharks
When I've been feeling these mental marks
How can I feel connected when I feel nothing at all

Manipulative Mirrors

 I've never felt so out of place
I feel sick from waking up with an unknown face
I'd rather be alone, listening to Three Days Grace
Leave me alone, haven't you heard of personal space?

All these manipulative mirrors have been telling me that I'm not good enough
The love I received was way too tough
Pushing and pulling every facial feature
Trying to convince me that I'm an ugly creature
Telling lies like a religious preacher
You sound like my ex
Go and clear that bullshit with Carex

I'm sick of feeling the weight on my body
The lies I hear, make me feel that I'm not worthy
I can feel the anchor dragging down my heart
Inaccurate images of me tear my life apart

I've never felt so out of place
I feel that I'm far from home
The pressure I get about the size of my waist
Leave me alone
Don't you have anything better to do than compare me to a random girl's skin tone?

I'm sick of these manipulative mirrors telling me that I'm not good enough
Then beg me for forgiveness for making me feel rough
Stop messing with my life like a play dough
It's killing my heart, it's killing my soul
I don't need anyone to make me feel low

I hate it when some of my selfies, make me look so deformed
My body involuntarily transformed
It pains me to feel dead inside
It pains me to feel like I'm choking on my pride
I wasn’t made to be destroyed
I wasn’t made to feel like an android

All these manipulative mirrors make me toss & turn
I feel that I was born in the wrong body, my stomach is about to churn
Making me sick, this fucking body dysmorphia
I see the crack on my fingers, thanks a lot bulimia

This reflection makes me feel like I'm drowning
This reflection, be clowning
I do not own this face
These manipulative mirrors are the master of deface
Who the fuck are you trying to manipulate?
Bail me out of his self-hate!

Reserved For No One

There's always that one question that I find so fucking irritating
I don't need all of this petty arse lecture, it's so fucking belittling
I don't need a weak-minded man who would make me feel less accommodating
All this peer pressure is sickening
Don't ask me why I'm single
I don't have time to mingle
Don't tell me that I'll find someone
Because I'm reserved for no one

Just because I'm a woman
That doesn't mean I should have kids
No, you can't change me, you can't change my mind
I don't give a fuck if I'm impossible to find
I've said it once, I've said it twice
Disrespecting my boundaries, that shit ain't nice
I trust no one
Because I'm reserved for no one

I don't see the point in risking another heartbreak
A relationship comes and goes, crumbles like a cheesecake
A relationship can't fix me; that's my job to fix myself
"OMG, you're showing off your body"
Whatever, you know fuck all about body neutrality
There's a thing called self-love, you should try it
"I love you, baby girl" Ha, I'm not fucking buying it!
Who cares if I'm still single at the age of forty
Don't kill my vibe, I'd rather watch Rick & Morty
Step the fuck back, I'm reserved for no one

I don't need marriage & kids to make me happy
Most marriages end because of the amount of adultery
Keep sucking off to these expectations of society
I'd better run, you're too needy
I'm not sorry that I'm enjoying my single life
Back the fuck up, I don't wanna be your wife
I'm reserved for no one

Why am I single? That's none of your business
I'll kick you like I leg press
Don't try to feed me stress
I don't need you telling me how I should dress
Spare me the bullshit. I don't need any more distress
Don't kill my vibe, let me have fun
Because I'm reserved for no one

Please don't talk, you're holding my mind hostage,
Didn't you get the fucking message
I don't want to play this game
You don't need to know my name
Peer pressure doesn't work through my brain
Why am I single? I don't need to explain
I already fucking told you, I'm reserved for no one

Dumbbells Over Dumbasses

Beast mode, always on the grind
The gym is the best kind of therapy
Mate, do you mind?
Please leave along with your negativity
I'm all about authentic vibes only

I'm not sorry that I choose dumbbells over dumbasses
Please don't waste my time, I don't have time to make enemies
Single? Taken? I'm at the gym
Don't talk to me about religion, I'm not going to write you a hymn
Working my quads off on the leg presses
So glad that my body is allergic to traditional South Asian dresses

Dickheads be seeing me as a threat cause I'm single
Please, I got no time to be disrespected I don't wanna mingle
I don't tell lies like a pringle
My rhymes will make you itch like shingle

Sorry not sorry, I choose dumbbells over dumbasses
Talking shit won't get you them gains
See the green lines? I'm flexing them veins
Glute workout tips? Ha, this ain't Build-A-Booty
Because I'm more than just beauty
I didn't ask for your opinion on my body
Bitch back the fuck up, authentic vibes only

Let me tell you a thing called a calorie deficit
Be consistent with your training and nutrition, that's a definite
Weightlifting is the best medicine
I mean offence NHS, you're all useless as the letter k in knife
Quit preaching about being pro-life
Even though I'm pro-choice, let's put this to the side
I like my meats, lean and air fried

I'm not sorry that I like to train my upper body
That doesn't make me bulky
Strong, not skinny
Welcome to the mother fucking gun show
If you need me, I'll show you how I cable row

The gym will always be my natural habitat
Damn right, I'm a gym cat
Got no time for posting stupid shit on Snapchat
I'll always choose gyms over simps
Gatekeeping is for wimps
Bitch I'm starving, hand me over them cooked shrimps

Now listen to me closely
The gym will always be my best buddy
The gym would never make me feel lonely

Energy Vampire

 First things first
Don't talk to me out of boredom
No one asked for your opinion dot com
Oh damn, the tables have been reversed
The girl you missed was easier to kill
Red pill, blue pill, you've been black pilled
I don't need you all up in my grill
Can't believe you've tried to down me in your pool of crocodile tears
My strength must have been one of your biggest fears
Ever since I've come back stronger
You're so weak from the fearmongering
I've learnt to love myself than be forced to wear a wedding ring

Don't go killing my vibe
No one asked for your opinion dot com
I'm dodging that love bomb
I've cancelled my subscription because I'm done with your issues
Achoo! Take those dirty tissues

Shut up, get out
I don't wanna know what you're talking about
Don't dump your problems onto me like I'm some trash can
I'm also human

Back off, don't touch me
My vibes can sense your negativity
People like you are the reason why I've been feeling so lonely
I'm strong enough to erase every meaningless memory
I don't miss this friendship
You think I should cut down on swearing? Fuck that, I don't need your tip
I've surrounded myself with the right kind of people
I'm not sorry that you're not included
Sis, are you deluded?
I ain't going to make amends

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
That you've got nowhere to go
You reap what you sow

Anchors (Emotional Punching Bag)

 I've noticed the way that you behave
I've seen it all before
Another friendship trampled on the floor
You didn't treat me as a friend, you treated me like a slave

Your toxicity weighed me down like anchors
I'm not your emotional punching bag
Ganging up on me with another mate, that's a right red flag
I don't need to explain why I've cut you off

I'm not the cause of your insecurities
Don't go bombarding me with your drama, I ain't an emotional punching bag
After all these charities
You're irritating me with your victim mentality like a clothing tag

Drop that 'poor me' act
You've already mistrusted the friendship contract
I'm not sorry that the friendship has died
You can't undo this mess, I've taken back my pride

It's people like you that make me feel lonely
Got me almost drowning deep in the ocean
I bounced back with a billion boundaries
Guess I did the right thing by ending this cold camaraderie
After I've seen your true colours
I don't need people like you in my life, weighing me down like anchors

Build-A-Bitch Part II

 Love and respect will always be earned, not given
I don't believe in fairy tales
 I'm not a fucking Disney princess
Don't expect me to wear high heels and a puffy-sleeved pink dress
Just because I have red hair, doesn't mean I'll be your Arielle
I pick quality over vanity, I ain't your Belle
I'd rather be alone in peace, standing under my umbrella
I don't wanna be your fucking Cinderella
No mate, I don't wanna be your Princess Jasmine
Guys like Aladdin ain't my thing
The list goes on, I'm too tired for this!

Boy, this isn't Build-A-Bitch
Weak-minded fools like you are only good at pressing copy and paste
I may not have a tiny waist
I'm more than a pretty face
I won't let you have a taste
England is my country, no use in denying my birthplace

Your unhealthy expectations of a woman
Makes you less of a man
I don't think you understand the difference between fiction and reality
You're just threatened by my existence and energy

Boy, this isn't Build-A-Bitch
You should be afraid of the fire I carry inside
I've risen back and maintained my pride
I dodged the bullet by not falling into the trap of being your bride

I don't need your backhanded compliments about my curves
You're weak as these pervs
I don't need to treat my friends like shit just to impress you
They'll always have my back, unlike you

Boy, this isn't Build-A-Bitch
I could kick your arse in the football pitch
Oh wait, I've retired
Fuck off with your gender roles, you're fired
Just let me be
Only a strong-minded man deserves me
But first, he has got to earn me