Submissive Delusion

They call it truth, I call it fragile fabrication,
throwing tantrums when I choose education,
I won’t be reduced to just a wife or a mother,
I won’t play the part of another man’s lover.
Fuck you all, I'm taking back my power

I refuse to defend what degrades me
Like a chicken standing up for KFC
Never negotiate with a terrorist, they say
I've seen it all before, I know the games they play 

Makes no sense that they smoke and drink alcohol
Yet they get offended over anything related to pigs
Why should I rely on a god, instead of curing my period pain with a paracetamol
Their definition of heaven is having 72 virgins; my definition of heaven is listening to hunky tattooed men, pig squealing in metal gigs
I don't understand their obsession with somebody's sex life
Sometimes, I feel sorry for the wife
But at the same time, they don't fully deserve my sympathy
Because their jealousy is sugar-coated with internalised misogyny
They are the princesses of patriarchy
Wtf are they doing, living in Western society

What do they gain by threatening me with violence
for not covering my hair?
Shouldn’t they be the ones lowering their gaze?
They call my existence sinful while being in their element of submissive delusion
Here I am, watching them hurt themselves in confusion
They'll be the architect of their own demise
Trying to fool everyone with their lies

Generation WTF

 Every generation has its flaws
Now they're all going through a generational war
Fighting over which generation is better
You know you can still do the old school way of writing a (love) letter
People love to romanticise the fifties while forgetting the fact that their grandmothers went through so much pain
Because they were stuck with a ball & chain
Getting beaten black & blue if she didn't get dinner ready
When feminists fought so hard for equality
Now you've got girls getting dramatic because their first date didn't pay for their meal
I honestly don't get why they're making this into a big deal

 Existing is expensive, yet we get told that we're lazy
While the older generation had everything handed to them, that shit's crazy
"Back in my day..." Okay boomer, boomer. We heard it all before
Didn't you start a rumour? Saying that I'm some whore
You think I'm gonna put up with your bullshit?
Because I wouldn't let you steal my spirit

Hush youngling
You don't know a thing
Why should I listen to you? I didn't ask for your pointless advice
Behind that fake smile, I know you're pretending to be nice
You think I'm gonna fall for your pathetic propaganda? 
"Men and women can't be friends." Fuck that shit, that mentality is toxic
Yet you're reading books that romanticise stalkers & rapists, you make me sick

Kids these days are getting rude
Throwing a tantrum when they get their iPad taken away
One day, they'll understand the value of money
Probably not because they think that shit's funny
Especially spending too much time on Tiktok
When they're all too young to be talking about sucking cock

I'm getting tired of this degeneracy
Everything's about supremacy

Heartless Harmony (Sweet Smoke Of Liberation)

I find bliss in this heartless harmony
In a world of self-righteous diversity
With this sweet smoke of liberation
I don't need your half-arsed invitation

Reconnecting with those who hurt me is like reading the same book over and over again
When I already know how the story will end

The people around me don't know the fucking meaning of loyalty
Yet they expect me to treat them like royalty
Loved me when I'm silent
Hate me when I'm outspoken
Acting like they care when I disappear
When they are the ones who should be living in fear

Each day, I spent ages picking the shattered pieces off my back
Each drop of blood reminds me of each haunting memory
Until I smell the sweet smoke of liberation
Free from the games of manipulation

Life's been a breath of fresh air
Without anyone under my skin or in my hair
The sound of silence has been music to my ears
Crying over snakes is nothing but a waste of tears

No one to drain me until my soul is gone
Accept a half-arsed apology from you and take you back into my life? Nah, that sounds like self-abuse
That's no use
When I don't see the point of drinking water, full of poison

Don't try to guilt-trip me with these meaningless memories
Because you'll never find me, disappearing through the sweet smoke of liberation

Disrespect Is Disloyalty

Uh-oh, self-respect has left the group chat
Hey Karma, where the fuck you at?
Jealous of my existence while you keep running your mouth
I'm not surprised that your love life has gone south

Who are you trying to impress?
Isn't it exhausting? Belittling me just to get validation
Hush bitch, you can't even bench press
It must be exhausting to not get enough attention

Does it look like I give second chances? I think not
The mask falls, and disloyalty is written all over your face
Leaving me with disrespect that I was forced to embrace
Defending those who destroyed my soul, that's cheapshot

It's no surprise that you see me as competition
You talk shit like a politician
Your jealousy is my ammunition
I'm stronger than your degree in manipulation 

Disloyalty is disrespect in disguise
Your fault that you ruined your own life

Don't put the blame on me, I wasn't fucking born yesterday
Do I have to spell it out for you? Go the fuck away!

Side Character Syndrome

Dr. Thorn here, here is your diagnosis
Psycho without the psychosis
*cleara throat* side character syndrome
And a kleptomaniac who tried to take my home

Motherfuckers wanna be the main character so badly
I don't care that you hate me, truly, madly, deeply
I don't have time to hear another sob story
"Why aren't you traditional?" Mate, this is the 21st century

Jealousy, it's written all over your face
Quit yakking, step the fuck back! You're in my personal space
You think you're kind, but you've got the heart of a coward
Aww, are you intimidated? Look who's disempowered
Hiding behind female empowerment while gossiping with your frenemy twenty-four seven
I may not be religious, but it sounds like you won't make it to Heaven 
You handed me the knife after siding with the evil sister-in-law
That was the last fucking straw
You were supposed to be my aunt
Now that your true colours have been exposed, *clears throat* CUNT!

Dear sister-in-law,
Just admit that you assaulted me like a donkey, hee-haw
You clearly made an arse out of yourself
Misery is written all over your face
Cheating on my brother while acting so self-righteous and religious, you're a fucking disgrace
You used your pregnancy as an excuse to be hostile towards me and my mum
Acting like you were the only pregnant woman in the world
Going after everyone's money, you're scum

So glad you're no longer in my home
Here's your diagnosis: you have side character syndrome
There will never be a truce
Especially when it involves all kinds of abuse
Financially
Mentally
Psychologically
You make antisemitism your whole personality
Shut up, princess, we know you're kryptonite is accountability
I can't believe I considered you as family
We all know you wanted to get with my dad so badly
You were desperate for a sugar daddy
*cough cought* gold digger
Go on, nonce apologist, pull the fucking trigger!

My face will be the last thing you'll see
Run like a coward, like you always do
You don't want me to get ahead of you
News flash, I'll remain undefeated
Bye-bye! Your existence has been deleted

 

All Talk No Walk

 This poem is dedicated to all those motherfuckers that make religion their whole personality
while they go around parading their hypocrisy

Fuck off

Practice what you preach, they say
Yet they go mumbling shit while they pray
Slagging off people for having a sex life while you're sex obsessed
Okay, I get being sexually repressed
But what has my character got to do with how I'm dressed
Keep walking; you're nothing but all talk
Stop talking; you can't walk the walk

You fucking what?
I ain't a Harry Potter fan but are you fucking Voldemort?
As treacherous as a snake, hiss hiss
Leave me alone, I'm jamming to Paleface Swiss

I'm not sorry that you find my happiness offensive
Go and get a hobby that isn't going after married men, that shit's obsessive
Why does it bother you when someone doesn't believe in God
Putting "God first" and including verses from a religious book in your bio while heavily judging others, that shit is fraud
"You're going to Hell for this!" Is that a threat?
The whole world knows your dirty little secret
You'll never understand the ordeals I've been through, so don't even talk
The guilt's written all over your face, bragging about sucking off some man's cock

"You used to be pretty back then," fuck off, I'm still pretty
You take the r out of pretty; yeah, you're petty
Cunts like you seem to be allergic to taking accountability 
Using your religion as an excuse to mock my disability
"I've been nothing but nice to you," oh fuck off
Here you go, avoiding accountability again
Aww, are you so insecure that you go after someone else's man?
Don't like how I wear my eyeliner? That sounds like a YOU problem
Sounds like you have side character syndrome

Aww, offended that I cut you off? You handed me the knife
I'll keep standing my ground and living my life
While you drown in misery
Go live in Dubai since you're hungry for someone's money

Empathy In Exhaustion

All these years, I've been drowning in self-neglect
It's about time I self-reflect
All these years, I've been exhausted from all the empathy I've been carrying, making me forget who I am
Showing empathy feels like a scam

Now I find it difficult to open up my heart

When I do, I get ridiculed and then ripped apart
Since when did these motherfuckers consider bullying art
This is why I'm becoming more selective
Trust is a rarity but it can be defective

All this empathy is making me exhausted
These motherfuckers shouldn't be trusted
Chew me up then spit me out
Leading me to self-doubt

Don't ask me why I'm heartless
Expressing empathy has led me to emptiness
Danger is creeping in my chest
Expressing empathy has led me to fatigue, my feelings remained unaddressed