Bad Girl Era

I don't have any fucks for you to loan
Because I've walked this road on my own
Wake up, there's no such thing as normality
Don't you try to question my reality
When you can't even respect every boundary I've created
According to everyone, I'm complicated
If you can't handle my fire
Don't expect me to fulfil your desire

No, I don't need to explain why
I ain't going to comply
There's more to life than getting under my skin
The old me used to allow the weak to win

The game you're looking for is not available
Now you're the game, I turned the table
Do you fear me now? I hope you forget my name
This ain't build-a-bitch, us girls aren't the same
I don't want a man who is like my dad
I can't believe you don't get that no means no, that's sad
Not everything is about sex
Yet you chose to get back with your ex
Babe, that ain't a flex
Shame on you for setting bad examples for your daughter
Your weakness and my strength are like oil and water
You didn't have the backbone to tell me that it's over
Guess what exposed you? The hangover
Aw why are you frowning
You're the one that's drowning

I'm done with being too nice
Warning, I contain a lot of spice
I don't want to be treated like a princess, I wanna be treated like a queen
Being in a room full of toxicity? That ain't my scene

The girl I used to be, was easier to kill
Now I'm ready to spit on everyone's grave like Jennifer Hill

05/01/21

Dear grandma,

It's been more than a year
I still find it hard to believe that you're not here
You left this world since the third lockdown
I'll see you again when my soul leaves the ground

 I'm not kidding when I say wake me up when January ends
These weekends won't be the same anymore
On this day, I'm torn into pieces
When grief speaks, it increases

I remember when I was a kid, you used to put Jungle Book
Only to get me to eat my food, even though I didn't look
That was when you decided to give Donnie the nickname, Bhagira
and Mowgli was the nickname for cousin Noah
Remember playing Super Mario games on the Super Nintendo
Trust me, you were a pro

I wish I wasn't pretending to be okay
I still think about you every day