I'm sick of explaining how I feel
Feels like I don't exist
Feels like I'm not real
The tears cry red on my wrist
Sometimes I feel nothing at all
I feel like I don't have a soul
Every day feels like I'm drowning in exhaustion
The pain in my chest, asphyxiation
Who asked you to bring back the monster I've created
You cannot be trusted
Each day, I struggle to love myself
Each day, I struggle to find myself
I cry myself to sleep
I try to fight my demons but the thoughts are so deep
My mind is exhausted
From explaining my pain, nothing is done and dusted
I feel like I'm drowning in exhaustion
I don't owe anyone an explanation
My skin burns from the gaslighting, my heart cries like a thunder
My stomach is churning from repulsion
I feel so numb, I try to wonder
I'm sick of being blamed for explaining my pain
Yet you turn around and asked me to explain
I don't want to vent to you cause I know you'll complain
My gut tells me not to trust you, stay in your lane
The holy water is full of poison
Just like your mind
As you hold that cold sharp blade
Look at the mess you've made
No one will come for your aid
