Dear Me,
It wasn't your fault that you were mute
These kids at primary school hurt you, that wasn't very cute
It wasn't your fault that you were brainwashed by religion
When you were passionate about Pokémon and football
I remember when your hatred for Disney princesses was established, I don't blame you at all
I won't forget the fact that your favourite boyband was Busted
Those losers who attacked you for liking them, can't be trusted
You didn't feel safe at the age of eight when you visited Bangladesh
When you were ten and started puberty, these fully grown adults (distant relatives) had no right to fetishise you in the flesh
You were in fear
You were groomed and fooled by every lie they smear
Especially the day you set foot in Dubai
Another country that made you cry
When you were young, you were taught to swallow your pride
I'm glad that you didn't turn into a child bride
These bastards should have been held accountable
Telling a young girl that she has the body of a woman, that's not adorable
Dear Me,
Things were getting tougher in secondary school
When you thought you had friends but they took you for a fool
That one summer you convinced your parents to take you to Old Trafford
Abusing Smarterchild on MSN, typing away on that computer keyboard
You were passionate about football, I'm proud of you for getting into the David Beckham Academy
Those girls were jealous because following dreams kept you busy
They were the ones that needed a personality makeover
You were glad that dad fought cancer
You were badass as a panther
Because they had nothing better to do other than lust over a rich guy with a fancy Range Rover
I don't blame you for being so cold
Because you would rather be at peace and headbang to Avenged Sevenfold
Singing your heart out whilst playing Guitar Hero
Or whooping arse in Mortal Kombat, playing as Sub Zero
Dear Me,
Things got a lot harder because you became a lone wolf in college
All the fools then saw you as a threat because of your skills & knowledge
Just like secondary school, the students were ridiculously ruthless
Having the audacity to tell you how to look and how to dress
Getting butthurt over your taste in music
Yet these horndogs got offended because you dared to not send them a suggestive pic
These horndogs demanded loyalty when they were trying to get in your pants over a bet
Good on you for dodging the bullet by acing college and getting all those two distinctions and a merit
Rather than having the personality of a dull-minded parrot
That cheesy script you wrote, got you an Oscar
You're that golden girl, you're a rockstar
The speech you made that night
So impressive, it made the room go from dark to light
Dear Me,
Things went downhill after finishing university
You were not obligated to attend the graduation ceremony
You were young & naive, falling for red flags
Surrounding yourself by a million dirtbags
People were all up in your grill, not respecting your privacy
They were all too busy, preaching about religion and politics
That's how they get their kicks
Since college, you've always seemed to enjoy sitting alone at lunch
Knocking down the bullies in one punch
Parents lied to you, university was like secondary school all over again
Bowling For Soup and I See Stars were right, high school never ends
It's so common in the South Asian community for parents to treat you like some competition
That shit should be denormalised, it made you lose ambition
These mother fuckers won't shut up about marriage & kids
I'd rather be independent than blow away my quids
Dear Me,
At the age of twenty-four, you found out that you're autistic
It was hidden by your family, it made you go ballistic
You were brainwashed into agreeing with values that are misogynistic
I shouldn't have let you down
When I was manipulated into leaving my home town
I'm sorry for the self-neglect
I wasn't strong enough to have any self-respect
Just remember that I'm not perfect
When I was manipulated into disingenuous love
A narcissistic nightmare that was hard to get out of
You were trapped in a trauma bond
He wanted you to get a breast reduction and dye your hair blonde
He made you throw away your kitty ears & collars
He tried to make you go to the US with him and spend all them dollars
Because of him, he made you feel that everything was your fault
If I was Pikachu, I'd end him with a thunderbolt
After escaping from him, you were blamed by fake friends
They had no respect for you, you did the right thing by letting them go
I don't blame you for being so cold
You were trapped in a nightmare, your life was on hold
Along came a bitch name bulimia
She fucked your mind and tried to make you fall for the media
A social media break for a year was pretty painful but well needed
Seeing Neffex live and the unlimited love from your beautiful black cat did you a huge favour
By getting over that loser, you became your own lifesaver
The day of freedom came, it was time to savour
You became well known as the Thorn of Rage
Roses are your favourite, go start that rampage
Knock them fake friends with a grand upper
Like Axel from Streets of Rage, that game is your bread and butter
November was the time you started working on your first novel, His Temptress
One day you'll own a male strip club like in Magic Mike, you'd be an empress
Sweet & spicy, I bet you're excited to write about male strippers in the future
Fuck traditionalism and cultural standards
Just be yourself, let people be threatened by your talent
The hate they feed you is so blatant
You came back strong
Go and prove them haters wrong
Dear Me,
I bet I've made you proud
I'm The Thornologist, let the lions roar so loud
Thank goodness you're no longer a Pick Me Girl
I'm sorry if I made you hurl
Gotta hustle for the muscle
Pick dumbbells over dumbasses
If it wasn't for Instagram
You wouldn't be part of the fit fam
Unlike the health freak cunts that would ask for your weight in kilogram
No one can be fooled by your autumn eyes
Because you can see through these multicoloured lies
Since 2008, you're still rocking that emo eyeliner
Blasting out Killswitch Engage's version of Holy Diver
The love for Pokémon is still alive
You used revive
Dear Me,
Be glad that you dodged the bullet
Keep living your life to the fullest
Authentic vibes only
Remember to surround yourself with people that don't make you feel lonely
