Offensive Priorities

 Forever rolling my eyes at those who say that sleep is for the weak
You don't even know me and my priorities
So, don't even speak
Take me for who I am and spare me them soulless sympathies
I'd rather find peace in my own silence
I'd rather not resort to violence
I don't want to be trapped in another nightmarish friendship or a relationship
I don't want to fall for another guilt trip

I don't have time to make everyone my enemy
The gym is my therapy
You missed the girl I used to be? Trust me, many will
Because she was easier to kill
No means no
You need to let it go
Don't assume that I like Frozen
That film is shit, spare me the commotion

I don't regret cutting those out of my life
They were the ones that handed me the knife
There's a reason, you're no longer in my circle
You're nothing but a fucking obstacle
Me? Cold as ice?
Get the fuck out, I don't need to tell you twice
I'm addicted to my priorities
I take it as a compliment when someone tells me that I'm hard to please
I don't need another extension of my trauma
I don't have time to watch another episode of your drama

Step the fuck back, you're in my personal space
I don't need you breathing down my neck
I feel unsafe, I don't wanna be in this place
I don't want to be around those that make me feel lonely
I don't want to be around places that don't feel homely
It's all clear that you're offended by my priorities
All you've been doing is denying my realities

You're nothing but an anchor to my existence
I'm allergic to your bullshit, keep your distance
You've destroyed my innocence but I've come back, strong
Keep talking shit because that's where you're wrong
Just leave me and my priorities alone
I'm better off on my own

Mr. Killjoy

 Every day, I'm minding my business
There's always that one negative cunt
Pardon my French, I'm just being blunt
You got the wrong girl, mate! Does it look like I give vibes of a princess?

Hey Mr Killjoy, why do you have to go killing my vibe
This is where I'll hit unsubscribe
I rejected you because you can't take me for who I am
Who the fuck likes eating green eggs & ham
Want me to be naked around you 24/7? In your fucking dreams
You always get butthurt when I do the things I like such as lifting weights and posting funny memes
Being needy as fuck? That's ain't hot!
Do you think I'd pick you over my friends? Absolutely fucking not!

So you think you're Alpha as fuck
By putting other men down to get my validation? It's official, you suck
'I wanna have sex with you' is the same bullshit you say
I got a life too you know, why expect me to talk to you every day
Jokes on you mate, I got my own back and my life to prioritise
I think I'm gonna be sick, from all the red flags you've romanticised
Getting butthurt whenever I have guys commenting on my Instagram
Dang mother fucker, you're nothing but a scam
You're a right bum, ain't you? I ain't into thirsty dogs like you
I woke up and realised that you were an extension of my trauma
Surprise mother fucker, my name is Karma

Hey Mr Killjoy, keep talking shit about me because no one cares
Because the more you keep spreading lies, you're going to be getting a thousand nightmares
Whilst I am living the dream, being appreciated by male strippers
Run Cinderella, I hope you step on the broken glass slippers
Move out of my way bitch, you're so immature
Still putting other men down, you're so bloody insecure

You won't get far with that schoolboy mentality
By making up stupid stories on my Insta posts claiming that you've met me in person, get your head out of your arse and get back to reality
I'm not sorry for cutting you off and ending this bittersweet misery
All you wanted was control
Your negativity and neediness ain't good for my soul
You're so two thousand and whatever
Guess what cunt, I deserve better

Hey Mr Killjoy
Why do you act like a little boy?
You're mad because I'll never be your fuck toy
Because everyone knows that you're a fuckboy
I can't be with a guy with no ambition
I'm not reserved for idiots like you, you don't have my permission
All you wanted was one thing
Your existence was as painful as a bee sting
You bored me by talking about your ex
Get out of my face, I'd rather listen to NEFFEX

'You'll never find a guy like me' thank fuck I won't 
'You should be a belly dancer' shut the fuck up
You call me a bitch because I got boundaries? Good
Can't respect them?
That's your fucking problem
Calling all women 'liars & cheaters' you need to go out more
I don't know what I saw in you, you're such a fucking bore!

Geographical Gibberish

This poem isn't for the faint-hearted
Not for the weak-minded so buckle up, the plane has departed
 
Back with a part two for Rare Creature
Can't think of another title for this poem but whatever 
Sit back because I'll be your geography teacher
I'm not sorry that you're offended by my outfit just because it's made out of leather
I ain't here to teach you how to rap
I'm here to put you in your place because I take no crap
Already put a fuckboy in his place, I made him regret
For calling me a 'Bengali Beauty' and insisting I should shop at Victoria's Secret
This is why I ain't into South Asian guys
Always throwing backhanded compliments at me or simping over brown pick me girls they love to glamourise
Surprise Pikachu face
Calling me a race traitor won't make your dick bigger, you're a fucking disgrace
A disgrace to the human race
I'm not sorry that I think you're the brown version of the Alt-Right
Whatever happens in the dark, will always come to light
I'd rather kick your arse like in Streets of Rage, my favourite game 
You mad that I ain't interested in South Asian guys, I ain't to blame
I won't let you tarnish my name
Don't even think about comparing me to the other South Asian girls, we aren't all the fucking same
I'm Thorn of Rage in the fucking flesh
Born and raised in England, not in Bangladesh
Speaking from experience doesn't make me racist
I got no time for the sexist, fascist and the classist
I can't believe I had to say this a thousand fucking times
Wanna know what makes me unstoppable, my flow and my rhymes
Shhh, be quiet
I don't wanna hear about your pointless diet

Dear America
I bet you don't know that saying 'I got it' in Greek is Eureka
How can I praise ya
When you always assume that China is the only country in Asia
Assuming every brown person is from India
The real Caucasians are from Azerbaijan, Georgia and Armenia
All you do is label all white people as Caucasian
Fuck off with your Asian Persuasion
As a Brit
I ain't obligated to care about your political problems, I'm tired of your shit
Because every time you sneeze
You affect the whole world with your political plague
Oh please, you’re all too vague
Quit assuming every Brit loves Harry Potter
Bitch please, I'm all about that gym life and every day I'm getting hotter

Dear Dubai,
Never mind, I don't give a fuck about you, goodbye
I don't get what's so special about you, you're nothing but materialism
That's my opinion, don't think about accusing me of racism
Mate shut the fuck up! I know you'll take me out of context
I'm not going to answer your text
These tall towers trigger my acrophobia
Don't take photos of me or else you'll trigger my body dysmorphia 
Fuck your stupid laws, you're all full of hypocrisy
Completely endorsing nothing but misogyny
Hated that place since I was eight
I wouldn't want to go there again, that place is an American duplicate
Arresting innocent people for no reason by making them suffer in their cells
Leave me alone, I’d rather be talking to dumbbells and barbells
The whole vibe of Dubai ain't my type
I don't understand the hype
Love it there? I didn't ask for your opinion arse wipe!
I don't need to know what every influencer is doing over there
Because I don't fucking care!

Holding a slice of pizza or a freshly washed apple counts as eating with your hands
Yet you idiots go posting a selfie in the Asian aisle
Boo fucking hoo, your tears are dry as a crocodile
Shut up, weaboo! You know fuck all about Japan
Bitch I hope I'll never run across your man
That's obsessed with anime titty
Bitch please, I'm never too old for Hello Kitty
I got no time for incels
They can all rot in their cells
Get in the bin mate, you're not worth my time
Not worth my fucking energy
Piss off and let me value my privacy

Rare Creature (Brown Fever)

 I didn't wanna make this but here I am
"Where are you from?" Asked the motherfuckers on my Instagram
I say, "I was born in England but my parents are Bangladeshi"
That one comment made me cringe "Bengali beauty"
Oi, you dumb cunt! Beauty is not associated with nationality

Why do people treat me like I'm some rare creature?
It's just as cringy as a religious preacher
Leave me alone, I'm allergic to your brown fever
Stay the fuck away from my mountain flower

Don't tell me that I'm "hot for a Bengali girl"
Shut up and learn how to bicep curl
Mate, I'm no fruit, don't call me exotic
Told you thousand fucking times, I ain't from India
Yeah I know my eyes are hypnotic
But you're grossing me out with your ignorance and Indophilia

Don't treat me like I'm some rare creature
You're no better than my primary school teacher
Don't even think about telling me that I look like some Lebanese pornstar
I bet you won't stand a chance, wrestling with a bear
Don't tell me that I should shop at Victoria's Secret
Mate, you'll fucking regret saying that
For insinuating that the size of my arse is flat
Go and read Dumbbells Over Dumbasses, this ain't build-a-booty
If you think I'm a 'psycho' then why did you call me a Bengali beauty?
What's next? You'd make me vomit by calling me, Princess Jasmine
Go read Build-A-Bitch part 2, I'm a queen!

Achoo! I'm allergic to your Brown Fever
Leave me alone, I'd rather watch Dexter
I think you need to go to Specsavers, I'm not dark-skinned
Got no time for you, I'm busy every weekend!

A Narcissist's Nightmare

 Now the tables have turned
Back with the bullshit again, I guess you've never learned
Look who's laughing now? The predator becomes the prey
I got no time for small talk, don't expect me to say hey

Whilst I'm still healing, I've moved on
No more restless nights until the crack of dawn
I'm not surprised that people like you still want to be centre of the attention
Everyone knows that you're the master of manipulation

I'm not sorry for cutting you off and them fake friends too
You can't live without me? Hahaha that's on you
I can't believe I thought you were the one
Until you started to try and change everything about me, I knew we were done

Shhh, do you hear that sound?
I came back strong and I'm standing my ground
Keep crying like a kid that got its toy taken away
I don't wanna catch up with you, I don't wanna know about your day

Oh I've heard it all before, you're not like the other guys
Stop fucking lying, I know you're looking for supplies
I can now see through your shit with my deep brown eyes
Keep painting your lame life with multicoloured lies

Why am I not surprised, that you are your own worst enemy
You should have treated me better
Instead of playing games and putting the blame on me
Don't expect me to come back to you, I'm never going to write you a love letter

Drowning In Exhaustion

 I'm sick of explaining how I feel
Feels like I don't exist
Feels like I'm not real
The tears cry red on my wrist
Sometimes I feel nothing at all
I feel like I don't have a soul

Every day feels like I'm drowning in exhaustion
The pain in my chest, asphyxiation
Who asked you to bring back the monster I've created
You cannot be trusted

Each day, I struggle to love myself
Each day, I struggle to find myself
I cry myself to sleep
I try to fight my demons but the thoughts are so deep
My mind is exhausted
From explaining my pain, nothing is done and dusted

I feel like I'm drowning in exhaustion
I don't owe anyone an explanation
My skin burns from the gaslighting, my heart cries like a thunder
My stomach is churning from repulsion
I feel so numb, I try to wonder

I'm sick of being blamed for explaining my pain
Yet you turn around and asked me to explain
I don't want to vent to you cause I know you'll complain
My gut tells me not to trust you, stay in your lane

The holy water is full of poison
Just like your mind
As you hold that cold sharp blade
Look at the mess you've made
No one will come for your aid

Offline From Reality

 How can I feel connected
When I feel empty and rejected
My mind is frozen, I feel disconnected
I cry until I feel nothing
Help me, I wanna feel something

These days I feel like I don't exist
These mental scars hurt more than the ones on my wrists
It's pulling me apart
It's eating up my heart

Please leave me alone before I turn unkind
The pain is killing my mind
Until I feel nothing, I lose colour
My heart is drowning deep in cold water

I feel far from home when I'm at war with myself
All these lies are telling me that I should fit in
These unfamiliar faces seem unforgiving
So dead and distant
The constant battle in my head is so persistent

How can I feel connected when I feel nothing at all
It's destroying my soul
Let me sleep to the sound of silence
I don't want to wake up to the sound of violence

I don't want to cry around others, it'd feel like I'm bleeding around sharks
When I've been feeling these mental marks
How can I feel connected when I feel nothing at all